20051118

IM IN A FREAKING MOOD RIGHT NOW.

but i wont say why. arghh. but anyway, i performed with my psch chinese ochestra this morning! haha. and guess what. their introduction (you know the part when they introduce the item) was like, "we have THREE SPECIAL guests performing with us today" and the three of us (me, junice& jingqin) was like so elated. hahaha! :D

oh and i read this book. it was about this girl, who was just an average teenage girl. and this guy, who was a superrich guy. so anyway, it was talking about fate and blah blah. because the two of them met at a restuarant where the girl works, and they fell for each other. yeah but this guy's mother was a member at that rich club restuarant.

and there was this other girl who kept breaking them up. i mean, like trying to make their relationship horrid. something liddat la. but anyway, the part i liked about the book was about fate. haha! im so NOT-straightforward right. say so much rubbish. the really nice question:

DO YOU BELIEVE IN FATE?
sigh. the girl had gotten this bottle that washed up to sea and SHE got it, and guess who it was writted by? by the guy who she liked. i mean, its SO meant to be, isnt it? obviously! ohkay. in my opinion. haha.

oh yea, and to be frank, i hate icetime. i hate that iceskating competition. i wish i didnt ever join it. i so totally regret. im just gonna embarress myself, right? and it's like, i cant even spin a PROPER SPIN, much less spin TWO TIMES continuously, right? and even SARAH says i cant spin properly. argh whatever.

i wish people would just stop insulting me then i wouldnt feel so hurt. and that she wouldnt insult ME. i mean, it's HER, my best friend! she doesnt even know i had felt hurt. even natalie who kept saying i was pro (which obviously i know it isnt true), at least she makes me feel happy right? argh i wish she would think about it. im not angry at her or anything, but im just hurt. she may not know but it bothered me very much just with that little sentence lor. sighh.

blahblah. ignore that. i was just venting my frustrations. november chopin rocks anyway. haha. im not looking forward to tonight anymore. i'll probably suffer during icetime. whatever. im so sure of it. im like the lan-est can.

oh and should i go for that PSA camp? i'll be stuck with all the lil kiddies and there'll be no one to talk to. because vera isnt going anymore, and sarah cant go. neither can ahmin! argh. and i'll miss the last session of TE too. which is quite sad (how suprising i feel sad) probably because i like that new song. i think it's very cool. :D even though there are some parts i cant ever seem to get right. and there's fourth position too.

IM DYING FOR MARSHMALLOWS.
HEEHEE SUDDENLY LA. xD
ANYWAY, BYEBYE(: